01/03/2026. Made by Stupied, go check it out!

100 Questions for Artist

1.) Introduce yourself! What kind of art do you make?

I'm Milky! I like to draw cute anime girls and make paintings sometimes, I like to go between the cute and the creepy and I'm mostly (like 99%) a original character artist :-DD

2.) How long have you been making art?

I used to draw when I was a little girl but to be honest I only started drawing regularly when I was like 16 or 17.

3.) How many hours do you spend for each piece?

It depends on many things, mostly how much my ADHD is on my side that day, if I'm working on a commission, if I'm not cleaning and cooking, if my sleeping schedule is all over the place, stuff like that. I think if I lock I can finish a piece in like two days.

4.) Do you prefer taking your time or do you like to quickly move on to the next thing?

I prefer taking my time, if I feel like I'm taking too long on something I move on to another piece for a while.

5.) When do you decide a piece is finished?

When I feel like there's nothing more I can add, sometimes my brain is just too tired and it's like "That's enough pal, just let it go".

6.) What part of the creation process do you enjoy the most?

LINEART!! I love making lineart, I also love rendering and planning out the composition, AND PAINTING THE CLOTHES!! I aim to paint clothes with lots of details TuT

7.) What part of the creation process do you dislike the most?

Base colors and the sketching )x it takes me like a hundred sketches to feel like I can finally move on to the lineart.

8.) Do you have a designated workstation or do you just work wherever?

I can only draw in my room at my little desktop. I make digital art like 99% of the time so I rarely feel like I have to move to another place.

9.) Do you monetize you work or is it purely a hobby?

It's just a hobby that I do purely because I love doing it so, but I also take commissions sometimes because I'm a NEET and I like to help in my house with what little I can do.

10.) Where do you share your work? On social media or a personal websites? Do you keep to yourself and close friends?

Mostly keep it to my close friends on facebook, here on my site, and on my aethy profile, I also made a twitter acc to give it a shoot but I always forget to post there x_X

11.) What's an aspect of your art you enjoy?

Just the fact that I can do it and I can bring my oc's to life.

12.) What are things you would like to improve on?

I wish I could make more dynamic poses, I also want to start painting more backgrounds x_X

13.) Are you self-taught or had formal education?

I'm self-taught :-3

14.) Do you research about old techniques or stick to newer ones?

Neither really, I just draw with whatever I vibe.

15.) What do you value more, experimentation or mastery?

Experimentation just because it seems more open to creativity.

16.) Do you practice drawing from the arm? What other art techniques to you practice?

I have no idea what this questions means LMAO

17.) How frequently do you do studies?

Very rarely, like even sometimes when I use a photo as a reference I might learn a thing or two but I mostly do it for fun. I have issues learning so when I think I'm going to draw something to learn I don't have that much fun, same reason I ended up being self-taught lol.

18.) Do you understand color theory? How'd you learn or do you want to?

I kinda understand it and try to apply it but don't put much mind onto it, if it clicks for me it's fine, no matter how UGLY AND EVIL IT ENDS UP LOOKING >:-D!!

19.) Favorite color(s)?

Pink and yellow :-3

20.) Are there colors you avoid? Do you think ugly colors exists?

Red is my biggest enemy, it melts my eyes.

21.) Can you do perspective?

NO LMAO, but that won't stop me from trying.

22.) Do you like doing lineart? How do you go about it?

LOVE IT, LOVE IT!! It's so relaxing to me, sometimes I would like to draw purely lineart pieces but if I don't paint something I might explode.

23.) Do you have multiple unfinished projects? Will you ever get to finishing them?

Not projects per-se but I do have some one-shots and art-related ideas for my site that have been on stand-by for some months.

24.) How do you start a new piece? Do you have a plan or just figure it along the way?

Most of the time I have a plan, even if it's a little noisy idea in my mind, sometimes I look for references if I have them but if I don't I just figure it along the way.

25.) How do you handle art block?

I just stop drawing and try to focus on my page or other stuff, if I try to keep drawing I just get frustrated and hate myself.

26.) Do you listen to music or watch something while working?

It kinda depends, if there's a song that inspired me for a piece I might spam the shit out of that song while drawing, if I have an insteresting youtube video I'll just watch it while drawing, and if I don't I just go back to listening whatever music kinda fits the tone.

27.) When are you most motivated to create? In the morning or evening? Rainy or sunny?

Lately I'm most motivated to draw on the late night because it's when I'm free to do my stuff, but oooh I love to draw in sunny days TuT

28.) Are your sketchbooks messy or aesthetically pleasing?

Don't really have sketchbooks currently! And fun fact, the fact that my traditional was not "aesthetically pleasing" enough was what made me stop buying them lol x_X

29.) Do you like showing sketchbooks to others?

I remember I used to show it to my co-workers sometimes but not a lot of people that I know irl it's really that interested in my art, so not really!

30.) Do you have any art friends? IRL or online?

Online! I think I've met most of my friends through art and I love that TuT!

31.) Do you collaborate frequently with your friends? Is there something you'd like to work on together?

I love joining my friends collabs and sometimes organize them myself ;_;! I would love to join a roleplay group or something because I see my friends participating and making art for theirs but I'm too retarded to fit socially anywhere.

32.) Have you created art to gift to others? How do feel about parting away from your work?

I love making art of others original characters T__T I love to show them my appreciationg of their work, I would love to do it more often!

33.) Have you drawn for someone else? Like commissions or requests? Did you enjoy it?

I did requests a few times but didn't really liked it, I do commissions here and there and I'm lucky to have clients that ask me to draw cute girls with cute desings so yeah I enjoy it TuT I had a little phase where I got commissions for stuff that I really wasn't that interested in painting but did it for the money, I'm never doing that again )x

34.) How's your posture?

I'm literally Rya from Elden Ring.

35.) Have you ever been injured making art?

There was a time where my wrist would hurt if I tried to draw for too long, but thankfully it hasn't happened again, I don't even think it was art related I think it was just from my work around the house lmao x__X

36.) What's a medium of art you've wanted to try / currently attempting?

I would LOVE to try and make oil paintings T_T but I think it would be too expensive for me to try and I would just waste the materials and feel guilty afterwards.

37.) Do you prefer stylized or realistic art?

I love it when people make stylized realism, like realism mixed with anime? I LOVE that.

38.) Do you like hyper-realistic art?

Not really dx< I appreciate the effort, patience and skill, but I feel like people rarely do something interesting with it so it ends up looking boring and repetitive. I think the only hyper-realistic artist that I kinda like is Gottfried Helnwein and it's mostly because of the themes on some of his paintings, not really because of the hyper-realistic technique by itself.

39.) Do you like abstract art?

Not super into it to give my opinion.

40.) How do you feel about fine art?

I just found out about the definition of this lol it sounds cool.

41.) How do you feel about outsider art? Do you think you fall in that category?

I think there's some great artists that fall under this category, everything feels like a personal glimpse onto the artists mind. My art is waaay to normal to fall under this.

42.) Do you follow art trends?

Not really, only if they are really interesting to me or if they fit one of my characters, otherwise it feels just like a chore to me and there's no fun in that )x

43.) Do you think your art is influenced by what's currently popular?

Back when I used to post on twitter it kinda did, I would see things that I liked in the artstyle of someone else and I'll try to add it to mine, but would eventually realize that it didn't fit my own art and I was losing my own style, so I learned my lesson and don't do it anymore lol.

44.) Do you compare yourself with others? Does it affect you negatively?

Currently, not anymore! Of course sometimes I would love to have the skill of other artists, but I've learned that if I just keep looking around I'll neglect my own work.

45.) Your controversial art take?

Artists should reach at least a certain level before selling commissions, and I don't mean professional level, I mean that they shouldn't sell commissions when they've been drawing for like two months (x

46.) Art related pet peeves?

I think these days this is going out of fashion because I don't see it as often, but back when people blended the sclera with the bottom eyelashes and it was everywhere omg x__X it does looks cute sometimes, but there were some people who overdo it and obviously did it because it was a popular thing and it looked so awkward.

47.) Who or what are your inspirations?

Jcm2's old paintings were my whole inspiration to start digital art back in the day, even to this day I still get inspired by it, is such a shame he doesn't do them anymore :-(. Masaru Shichinohe is a big inspiration too, and I haven't followed them since I left instagram, but Likrot was also a big inspiration back when I started drawing.

48.) What's an art piece / artist you wished got more attention?

This feels like two whole different questions o.O but I do feel like I'm surrounded by amazing artists that are really underrated in general.

49.) Have you touch grass recently? Do you go out frequently or do you spend most of your time indoors?

I'm a NEET baby I have to either be a NEET or never draw again B) (I did touched grass yesterday with my family)

50.) Do you create art daily?

Almost! I like to draw daily even if it's just starting a new piece or drawing smaller things.

51.) Do you take breaks from creating? How frequently?

I do, mostly when I have art block, don't have any ideas for a new piece or when I feel like I hate my art and making art is the worst thing ever.

52.) Do you set deadline for your work?

Only when I make commisioned work (I like to take a week max) or when I draw something for a collab with a set deadline, anything else I don't mind how long it takes.

53.) Do you archive your work? Do you keep old pieces?

I do! I have archived almost all my past art here on my site :-DDD

54.) Are you embarrassed of your old work? Or are you indifferent by it?

There was a time when I was kinda edgy, like not offensive-edgy but edgy still, I deleted most of the art from that time but the few pieces I kept I kinda liked them despite everything.

55.) Do you seek out for criticism? How do you handle feedback?

I don't dx not to be a contrarian or because I think I'm perfect (I'm far from it) I just don't feel the need to, and I feel like people's opinions on what needs or doesn't need to be done in art doesn't fit what I think, so I just do my own thing and learn at my own pace.

56.) Are you harsh on your own work? Or do you love your work despite all it's flaws?

I love my art despite my flaws! I learned that if I'm too harsh on myself I'll just stop drawing certain things until I feel like at a certain level of skill and I wouldn't draw that often.

57.) Do you get compliments frequently? How do feel about them?

I'm a pretty who? kind of artist so I don't get them that often, so I do feel pretty hyped when few people tell me they like my art or my characters TuT!

58.) How do feel about the rise of generative AI? Do you use it for getting ideas or references?

I think it's kinda annoying when both sides (anti and pro) are like "AI IS GOING TO REPLACE ARTISTS FOREVER!!", and I don't like when people try to pretend ai-generated art is their own, but besides that I don't really care, I'm not super agaisnt it but I obviously don't need it myself because I have something that's stronger, it's called natural retardation.

59.) How do feel about tracing? What about tracing 3d models to streamline art process?

If it's assets or photos of yourself, hell yeah, if it's art, hell no. I do think some artists use them too much and it shows, it looks awkward.

60.) Drop you art resources!

I don't really have lots of art resources T_T the only thing I can think about are my sai brushes that I have listed in my about page.

61.) Do you prefer making fanart or original content?

I like it when I find something so interesting that I feel like making fanart, but ORIGINAL CONTENT ON TOP!!

62.) Do you think original content are more creative than fanart?

Not really, I've seen some gorgeous pieces made from fan artists that expand from the original work, I've also seen creators with cool oc's that do nothing with them, it just depends on the artists more than the subject.

63.) Do you strive for originality?

I only care to not make a one-for-one copy of someone elses work.

64.) Do you draw from imagination or heavily rely on references?

A bit of both! Sometimes I come up with something from scratch but I also have to help myself with some references.

65.) Do you think using references is a crutch?

Not really o_O

66.) Do you like to make mood boards or scroll through Pinterest?

Nope! I think it's a cool thing to do but not really my thing. And I also really hate pinterest for some reason.

67.) Does your work have a story behind them or do you just make things that you think look neat?

I love to do stuff related to their stories, especially when it's a painting or a collage T_T sometimes I just do them for fun.

68.) Do you think art should have a purpose?

Not necessarily, but sometimes when it doesn't I feel like it shows.

69.) Favorite aesthetic?

I really like religious imagery.

70.) Do you have a muse or a theme you fall back to?

My little baby Noelle and Sunkissed as a whole T__T lately I have also been really Tuesdaypilled.

71.) If you could eat you art, what would it taste like?

Peanut butter jelly sandwich (I never know how to answe these)

72.) If your work suddenly became sentient, would it adore or hate you?

They're not the kind of holding grudges, but they would tease me here and there for sure.

73.) Based on previous question, can you win in a fist fight against it?

I could win agaisnt ANY OF THESE MFS!! except maybe Saoko.

74.) Is your art style consistent? Do you prefer making a wide variety of art?

I think I am consistent, but I don't really care if I am or not, I just draw however I feel like it in each piece (unless is a commission in a certain style)

75.) Do you revisit old concepts or sketches? Do you touch em up or leave them as is?

If it's not finished, yes I do give it some touch ups and maybe finish them, if it's finished I might do a redraw, but I don't do that super often lately.

76.) Do you believe in talent or is it all skill?

I think it's all skill, some people might learn faster than you but that doesn't mean that anyone is more talented than the other, it's just the years of skill.

77.) What's your favorite thing to draw / make? Do you prefer making living things or still life?

I love drawing clothes, I also love drawing little rooms here and there, but I don't do it as often as I should.

78.) Do you create your art with a specific audience in mind? Who?

I do it for myself first and foremost, but if people like my freaky and silly art I also do it for them :{3

79.) How do you feel about people taking inspiration from work? Do you think art style theft is real?

I think it's only annoying and dumb if people try to copy the whole thing instead of applying the things they like to their own style, if you get inspired and apply it to your own style that's a hell yeah brother from me.

80.) Do you participate in art conventions? Do you sell your work or support everyone else?

I would like to participate in one but I know I would flop. I would totally love to buy and fill my desktop with stickers and prints from other artists tho T__T

81.) Are you art materials expensive? Do you hoard any tools?

I just got me my first drawing monitor for my birthday and that is probably my most expensive art-related tool right now, I would say my computer too because the biggest reason I got it was that my poor old laptop was getting to ancient to even run SAI lol, but besides that not really. As a teenager I felt like I wanted to draw in traditional and bought a lot of stuff that I barely used.

82.) Do you organize you supplies and tools systematically?

For my digital art I only use a few things so not really!

83.) Do you clean up after a project? Or do you just leave everything lying around till you need the space?

I usually clean up the references mess I save in my desktop and put the .sai file and drawing itself on their respective folders.

84.) Do you have a ritual before you start creating? Do you have a drink or some snacks?

I usually try to get everything house-related done or else I feel like I can't draw peacefully x__X

85.) How do you feel about censorship in art? Where do you draw the line for inappropriate art?

Even as a "problematic" artist myself there's things and themes that I don't like, but as long as it doesn't relate to real people I just look away and move on. I don't like to go around telling people what and what not to draw, it's dumb and annoying, just do your thing and find your people.

86.) Do you censor your own art? Do you feel like you leave out details for it be socially accepted?

NOPE!! If my art doesn't appeal to me I might explode.

87.) Do you feel intimated with starting a new projects?

Kinda! I feel like there's so much I want to do but there's so much I need to learn first, but if I don't do it I will never learn, it's a cycle, oof x__X

88.) Are you scared of your art regressing? Do you think it's even possible to get worst at art?

Yes :-( Back when I transitioned from drawing with a mouse to getting my first drawing tablet I feel like my art got a little bit worse, I think it was also because people were looking up to me and saying that now that I had a better tool I was going to do so much better art! Lately I think it doesn't happen as often, it mostly happens when I have to work and don't have time for art in general.

89.) Do you frequently make compromises for your work? Does your art come out the way you envision them?

It doesn't always come out the way I envision it, but I learned to accept that and just draw whatever, I can always revisit these pieces in the future when I get better, so it's okay :-)

90.) How well do you manage your mistakes? Do you stress about them?

YES, especially when I'm sketching and things doesn't look good, I hate it, I wish I could be like those artits who just get straight to it y_y

91.) Do you make lists of things you'd like to make? Do you actual commit to them?

I don't! For the exact reason that I jump from one piece to the other lmao >XD

92.) What is your ultimate goal of your work? Like, is to tell a story, connect with others, or just to enjoy the process?

I just want to create, I enjoy to show my characters, I think it's cool that other people like it and that I've met so much people thanks to my art!

93.) What's something you've recently worked on that you're really proud of?

I really liked my paintings from last year BUT ESPECIALLY the collages!! Making a full canvas feels so fulfilling, I love Tuesday's Servitude and Sunkissed Nostalgia.

94.) Do you have any dream projects? Have you started on them?

There's a few Sunkissed one-shots that I currently have in wip that I would love to just sit and work on, I also have so many ideas for the Cute Aggressions shrine, I have even been writing more for it! I hope I can work on it soon T_T

95.) Would you prefer unlimited money or unlimited time to make your projects?

TIME!! I don't a flip about money, but time, oh man, I wish I could have just a week to draw and work on my stuff.

96.) Why do you create art?

I do it for me, I like it, (I think) I am good at it and I am alive.

97.) Are you happy with what you create?

There's times when I feel like I hate it, I hate making art and I wish I learned a more useful skill, but at the end of the date I am happy, if I wasn't I would've stopped a long time ago.

98.) Do you think everyone should make art?

Yes :-) Even if it's just for fun, even if you don't think it'll go anywhere, draw silly guys, be self-indulgent. I've had clients giving me a little sketch of what they want me to do, I've had my brothers do little doodles for me, and it's the cutest thing ever, I wish more people did that.

99.) What's advice you'd give to newer artist?

Learn at your own pace, discover what YOU enjoy to draw, not what the algorithm likes, not what people will give you more reposts for, or what will give you the most clients. Don't be ashamed of drawing things that you feel are out of your skill, and most importantly, BE SELF-INDULGENT!!

100.) When did you finish this? How'd you feel?

It's 07:43 am over here, I feel a bit tired but for unrelated reasons, I might just make myself a coffee and go on with my day -w-

Thanks for reading to whoever is out there :-DD Hope you have an amazing day y que Dios te bendiga!

24/02/2026.Spanish.

So just a little bit of context or somewhat of a TL;DR for my non-spanish speakers, when I said the next update on the page was going to be the Sunkissed page I lied. To be honest, writing is taking longer than expected x_X so I felt like doing other stuff in between, and I had an idea to make this page dedicated to that "Currently on repeat" section I have at my homepage. It was bad timing, because just a day after, El Mencho got captured and subsequently killed (allegedly). Things went to shit over here, people were scared shitless for a few days, and they still are, things could just go wild at any moment, but sadly living in México you kinda get used to the idea that that is something that could happen.

"But Milky, what does this has to do with anything?". I've been listening a lot of this genre called corridos tumbados, so naturally my "currently on repeat" page is full of songs from the genre (is not what I'm going to write about all the time, it's just that it happened to be what I'm listening to rn). When you live here and shit like this happens people start pointing fingers, looking for someone to blame, these kinds of people will point the finger at you and blame you even for something as simple as buying avocado, so of course one of the things that people like to point fingers the most, is at people who listen to corridos tumbados, or corridos in general. Here's the wikipedia article so you can kinda get an idea, but the thing is that this genre is controversial because of much of it it's based and associated with narco-culture. My opinion about the genre is kinda similar to my opinion on fictional media, in which I don't support narco-culture, but at the same time I understand that the situation with music and the creators on this genre are a bit more complicated than just general fictional media. Next section is going to be in spanish so feel free to skip to the footnote at the end.

Cultura de pobres

Y no, no me gusta la narcocultura, no la apoyo, y de hecho la odio. Tengo traumas relacionados con el narco que son un poco personales como para escribirlo acá. Ni siquiera me gusta la marihuana, odio las drogas en general. Odio casi todo lo que la narcocultura representa, entonces ¿Me vuelve esto una hipocrita porque me gusta este genero musical? Posiblemente, la verdad si, pero puedo vivir con eso, prefiero ser hippocrita que decirle a otras personas que "son parte del problema", que por eso "terminan como terminan", que no solo ellos se lo merecen como personas, pero que nosotros como pais tenemos el pais que nos merecemos solo porqué este es de los generos musicales más populares en el pais (algo que se evidencio mucho con la opinion de la gente cuando Fuerza Regida y varios artistas similares se mostraron en los primeros puestos de "mas escuchados" a nivel nacional).

He leído noticias sobre hombres, incluso muchachitos, que han ido a supuestas entrevistas de trabajo nada más para terminar siendo secuestrados por el narco para hacerlos trabajar para ellos, he leído de hombres incluso siendo secuestrados así nomás en la calle, como si nada, con el mismo motivo, a veces simplemente porqué el malilla de turno se "equivoco de persona", tuvimos una noticia nacional de tremendo calibre hace meses con una fosa clandestina enorme con temas similares. He leído de gente siendo asesinada por estar en "el lugar equivocado en el momento equivocado", y me da un pesar que si de casualidad una de estas victimas tenía una canción de este genero en su celular seguro saldrían a decir que "se lo merecían" porqué "lo romantizaban", algo que hacen mucho también cuando se enojan más de que una desaparecida vuelva a su casa en lugar de que la encuentren muerta porqué seguramente "andaba en el desmadre nada más". Y verga, incluso si terminan entrando en esa vida por su propia cuenta no los podría culpar tanto porqué el narco es una organización depredadora que te vende esa vida de que pueden hacer lo que quieran porqué son los reyes del pais, y al final de cuentas, lo son.

Por supuesto que creo que hay una responsabilidad que ponerle a estos artistas que aportan a esta imagen, es algo que no puedo negar por más hipocrita que me declare. Las narconovelas/narcoseries (las cuales por suerte son cada vez menos), los tiktoks que vienen de la fuente, las peliculas, por supuesto las canciones, se que pueden dejar una idea en la cabeza de la gente más vulnerable, pero esa misma gente no consideraría siquiera la idea de meterse en algo de lo que a estas alturas la población sabe que no vas a salir bien si él pais les diera más apoyo, si las condiciones de empleo no fueran tan jodidas, donde muchas personas ocupan dos trabajos y solo unas cuantas viven no solo en el lujo, pero viven BIEN en lugar de sobrevivir, donde ser pobre te vuelve una victima de discriminación por tu propia gente (algo que yo misma he sufrido, encima de pobre, morena y fea). Y no quiero que esto se lea como que odio a mi pais, porqué la verdad es que no, amo mi pais, amo a su gente, amo esta cultura y no me veo echando raices en ningún otro lado, pero el lado feo también es real, y en momentos como estos es donde más se nota.

El otro día, entre todo este problema, me tope con un video que puede que haya sido falso, pero me partió el corazón porqué bien puede ser la realidad de cualquiera por ahí. Era de un muchacho, uno que se veía muy jovencito, caminando por el desierto o un terreo valdio con otro hombre y una AK-40 en las manos, diciendo algo tipo "A todos los padres, por favor enseñenle este video a sus hijos; no se metan en esta vida, no hay viejas, no hay carros, no hay dinero, nomás esto".

No soy tonta, se que hay mucha gente por la que no sentir pena en este tipo de organizaciones, pero no puedo evitarlo. Siento pena por los hombres que fueron engañados para entrar en una organización así, siento pena por las mujeres que se metieron con algún narquillo nomás porqué así "pueden vivir bien", siento pena por todas las victimas, las que encontraron y las que no, siento pena por mi pais, nunca en mi vida he visto un video de una narcoejecución (ni planeo hacerlo) ni siquiera por morbo porqué se que no soportaría el pesar, aún si son gente que se lo merece. Ver a gente buscando a quien echarle la culpa me da mucha frustración. A muchos de ellos les importa una verga el mensaje, si fuera de algún genero que ellos consideran "cultural" les daría igual, simplemente en su mayoria odian que sea un genero popular entre "gente pobre", "gente color carton", "gente sin estudios", y es obvio que no hay algo que odien más que las cosas de gente pobre. No nos soportan, llaman "romantizar la pobreza" a cualquier cosa que conlleve a gente de "abajo". No les gustaban las cumbias hasta que llegaron Los Angeles Azules a hacer un concierto con orquesta sinfonica y artistas que ellos encontraron "aceptables". Es muy triste ver a mi gente traicionandose entre si, queriendo echarle la culpa a cualquiera menos al gobierno o a los narcos en si. Se que no toda la gente es así, se que igual te pueden disgustar los corridos tumbados o la regional mexicana por cualquier otra razón, que no te guste la cultura, que no te guste el estilo, que simplemente no sea lo tuyo, y eso se entiende totalmente, pero siento que la gente últimamente no puede simplemente decir "No me gusta esto" y ya, siempre tiene que ser un "No me gusta esto porqué esto y esto y aquello, y si a ti te gusta, TU eres un imbecil tonto baboso".

No escribo esto tanto en plan obligatory "the situation on México is insane" o tampoco en plan querer justificarme de porqué escucho esa música, igual que en mi gusto en ficción siento que las cosas no son tan blanco y negro, simplemente era algo de lo que me quería desahogar porqué me duele que la misma forma en que como país podemos unirnos por un bien comun igual nos podemos dividir tanto y tan cabrón por cualquier cosa.

Over Here.

And I'm okay, by the way (no one asked). I've been told that here where I live we are under the control of a different evil ass cartel, but now that El Mencho is dead the whole organization might go down and go into different directions, which is a bit scary to be honest, and like I said, things could go wild at any moment, but for now things are alright. I pray every night for my family, for my friends who are actually really close to danger zones, and for the whole country, but I know I'm just a regular woman and there's not that much that I could do, so I don't like to fall for the "THE COUNTRY IS BURNING WHY AREN'T PEOPLE DOING MORE?!" kind of thinking. It's not that I want to be silent and pretend nothing is happening but I don't like virtue signaling either, I don't like to pretend I'm a activist or anything. I was reading Lapin's Valentine's card the other day and the "Stepping Away from the Noise" section really hit close to home.

I'll probably write something more positive soon, that's two rants in a row, so let's hope nothing insane happens soon that makes me want to write something like this again x__X

Please take care, y que Dios te bendiga.

14/02/2026.diary, vent.

Oh my, Happy Valentines! Today's entry is not so romantic though.

I feel like I have moments in which life feels so full of energy, I want to socialize and hang out with my friends, I feel welcomed, but then, everything falls down for no reason and I feel like I'm not wanted anywhere, there's no place where I could fit. I look at people and everyone feels so human, it makes me feel like I'm just "something" existing in the background. It's sad, it's lonely, and I it's like I've been feeling like this my whole life.

I made a mini-rant on facebook about it, and I had to delete it because I'm afraid of pushing people away even more because of it. I'm not an intellectual and I'm not super political savvy, but I do know I'm a leftist, and I've also noticed that I'm not as radical as my friends. I think if I voiced my opinion about some stuff, they would label me a far-right nazi, not because my opinions are sooo extreme and bigoted, but because I've seen them label people for things that I kinda agree with, it's scary, it's intimidating. I'm really open to disagreeing, not only with my friends, but with anyone, I've had some chill right-wing friends, and the idea that that alone would paint me as being right-wing myself is scary. And I'm not saying like "I think both teams should have fun and everyone should get along :-DDDD", especially not on this day and age, but I wish more people agreed to disagree. Nowadays it seems like radicalism is the only option, you have to agree a hundred percent with everyone on everything or else you're the enemy, and that's scary, it's even scarier in the social territory. This thought has been making rounds in my head for a while, I feel like I'm making myself more and more lonely just because I'm not as radical as others. I want friends, and I want to feel sure that my friends don't hate me just because we disagree on something, but I'm afraid if I even bring up the topic they will get mad at me about what I don't agree with them on. I was just thinking about going back to twitter to connect more with other artists but I know things aren't going to work out, maybe I'm just meant to stay like this.

I want to feel human. It comes so naturally to everyone else I just can't help but wonder what is wrong with me.

I also have to say, I love my friends, I think most of them even if we disagreed on something, would still love me. They're not bad people and I would never think of them that way, even if we completely disagreed on everything. It's just my brain doing funny things to me, my brain is always telling me about the worst kind of results, and when I see people getting flagged for things that I agree with my brain tells me that they are going to somehow read my mind, figure out everything, cut me out and hate me forever. It's silly, but I think it's also the issue with watering down a lot of heavy words.

Ahhh ~_~ this was something that I wrote about on facebook, but I had to delete it, like I said. Might as well talk about it here to let it out of my system and move on with my life. I'll hopefully update the page pretty soon, this is my go-to place when I feel I have to run away from the world after all, and I've been reading other people's diaries or just the blogs on their pages, and it made me feel like I should write a little bit more too. I might revamp this page to properly tag stuff and separate vents or diary entries from the rest, or I might do a whole new diary page, who knows, I need to come up with a design first lol.

Happy Valentine's <:-3!!

25/01/2026.gamelog, journaling, diary.

Gotta be honest, I had an entry sitting about the 100 Questions for Webmasters by Mouseling, but I realized I wasn't the best to talk about something like that -w- so now this entry besides being somewhat of a diary entry has also been hijacked by my recent obsession: Heartopia >:-DDDD

Don't get me wrong tho, the lack of updates is not because I've been playing all the time, it's mostly because I want to finish the Sunkissed shrine before I move on to other updates, and it's been going fine! You can take a peep, hopefully it won't take that long to go online after this entry, to be honest I'm at like 80% but also at the hardest part: writing the whole info about the characters x___X

Little Diary section

Happy new years by the way! Christmas and new year were pretty similar to a regular day over here. My sis gave me a pajama party Usagi plushie and I got a bit of money, so I bought myself a little wardrobe because, a little piece of Milky's lore, a few years ago my closet got damaged by the water during a really shitty storm season, so I used to put all my clothes on top of my desktop, having them in their own place again feels great TuT I don't have lots of clothes but it was still annoying to have them where they shouldn't be! I also got a desktop chair, because the one I had was a shitty one that was super close to making me fall on my own ass (Sorry if my room looks like shit but you know, I'm a low-medium class third worlder after all).

Besides that, I was farming really hard on IDV because I want that damn Joseph S skin, he looks so fucking good and this is my second favorite COA (my favorite is COA VIII because of Lilly, Memory and Orphy obvs), and even though I didn't get it I'll work hard to get him in the future *sigh* T__T so, since I already gave up and this season is almost about to end I tried to keep my mind occupied on something else, and I found out about Heartopia!

Heartopia Hell

Despite me being the most regular foid of all time, I'm not super into cozy games to be honest, at most I've played The Sims and Animal Crossing (Pocket Camp, because I don't have money for a console, though I've been thinking of an emulator for New Leaf but THAT'S ANOTHER TOPIC!!), and I tried Heartopia because I thought it looked cute, and it somehow got me, I'm obsessed with this game now, I have so much fun decorating my little house and my little character TuT!! Her name is Vanilla Cappucina lmao -w-

I'll talk more about what I thought about it technically on my medialog, but as far as my game goes, I've just been building and farming like cray', it's a really slow game which is funny to play as someone who doesn't do much outside cleaning, cooking and staying at home, and I've somehow managed to stay online for like a few hours a day. Playing with friends has also been super cool, it's so cute and nice to go around and see how their house is doing TuT I'm also so in love with Blanc, he has the cutest design ever, Vanya is so cute too omg, I feel like I want to date them both and dating is not even an in-game mechanic LOL T__T!!
Been thinking about journaling about my gameplay somewhere on the site, but I'm afraid of losing interest in it or something, maybe I'll just add a heartopia tag on my microblog when I get it done, but for now this is my first entry about the game -w- I was going to put some screenshots of my house here but I FORGOT TO SAVE THEM ON MY PC and I'm almost done writing this so I'll leave it for later.

So, if the person reading this is also playing Heartopia LET ME ADD YOU!! or add me >:-3 we don't have to play together but I would love to add more people there!

The Other stuff

I also wrote something about Tuesday and Cole (content warning for abuse), it's about how her room came to be, something that I had in mind since I started that one drawing of her room a few months ago. I wrote it in english to practice a bit so it is nothing crazy but wanted to leave it somewhere on the page while I make the Cute Agression shrine to store it there.

My birthday is next month and I'm not super excited about it ~_~ I'll probably try and keep my mind super occupied on anything else so before I notice it's already September or something, besides that, that's it for this entry! Promise that next time I update this site it will be with the Sunkissed shrine completed o_Ó9 hell yeah.

17/12/2025.journaling.

I was planning on writing about this on my art journal, but since it seems to be taking FOREVER!! I decided to just write about it here and move it later when it's done -w-

The Kiss

I recently finished this one art for Love Letter inspired on The Kiss by Gustav Klimt, it's kinda like a sequel of my first painting of this year, which was inspired by The Pieta by Michelangelo, starting and finishing the year with these two paintings was by accident but I found it so cute T_T

On the background the lyrics "Seine Angst ist meine Angst, seine Wut ist meine wut, seine Liebe ist meine liebe, sein Blut ist mein Blut" are written, they come from Rosalia's Berghain, which has been on repeat in my mind since it came out and is a song that I relate to them so it's been living rent free, Lux just gives me Love Letter vibes, Porcelana screams Amanda to me but that's a yapping for another day. The thing that pushed me the most to paint this was the Finale from Sondheim's Passion, MAN the feelings I have for this musical it's been living rent free on my mind since I first watched it, I also referenced Fosca's line on my first painting.

"To die loved is to have lived".

There's this theme of life and death between these two paintings, a celebration of life and love; Julian's dolls lamenting his death but celebrating when he's alive, flying in the skies hand by hand while he stays in his own personal heaven, the warm of Amanda's skin when she's back in the arms of her loved one instead of having his lifeless body on hers, the shared burden of their hearts, one that they now hold dearly for eachother, another thing I had on repeat while working on this was the Valerie and Her Week of Wonders soundtrack, there's something so dreamy about it, just the rest of the movie, that I wanted to translate to this painting too, the waking up from a nightmare to a world of color and warmness, the sunshine after the snow, that really encapsulates their relationship and the feeling between these two paintings.

Art Summary 2025

WITH MY YAPPING ABOUT THE PAINTING OUT OF THE WAY! And since I had finished what is most likely my last painting of the year I made my art summary for 2025! I've been making these yearly since 2015, started as a tradition while I was still on deviantart but I kept it even since I left when the site went to hell. This year I really thought I was going to fill every month with big pieces until I started asembling everything, even though I made a few more detailed pieces this year most of the time I made them back-to-back and then proceed to either not draw for a while or do smaller art, so some of the stuff I thought I had made in different months actually were made in the same one and I only had some smaller stuff to display on some other months LOL T__T


I'm pretty happy about my art this year! Something that I've been teaching myself between 2024 and this year is to just draw whatever I want even if I feel like my skills are not quite there yet, because if I don't do it now, when? That has motivated me quite a lot! I also managed to start art and actually finish it in like a week, I usually have this issue of starting something only to then start something else before I finish it, sometimes because I get busy (like when I get a job) but most of the time it's just because I can't focus on one drawing, I'll start another one and another one and before I notice I have a pile of unfinished art, some of the art I did this year was stuff I actually started in 2024 x__X, so this year I've been trying to either finish old wips or not start something else before the first in progress is actually finished, I still struggle with it but I've been improving! I'm happy with the amount of full pieces I did this year, I also recently noticed that I made a poster or a collage dedicated to each one of my ships this year and this made me SO HAPPY! If I could I would print them and display them in my room like a dumb teenager putting up her Twilight posters (let's ignore that Noelle and Theo have like three collages at this point tho, tee-hee)



Something that I was a bit scared of this year was drawing less because I've been working on my site maybe a bit-too-much, but I found a nice balance drawing for the site while working on it! Like the few Lucky's I've made for some pages, I've also feel motivated to draw for specific pages! The chibis on the dollhouse landing page were made exclusively for it, the fullbodies of the Sunkissed cast were also made for the Sunkissed shrine, and there's so much more art that I plan to do for the site @__@!! and even if it's not for the site I also found a nice balance of drawing between updates on the site, I hope I can keep up this pace!

Past Years

As said before I've made this almost since I started digital art, I find my early years really cringey (who doesn't?), but keeping the past in mind is always nice. You can take them as a wrapped version of my gallery >:-3




That was it for this! I might not write something for the end of the year so I hope you have an amazing start to the 2026! Have this out of context and silly video of Cole and Tuesday because I don't know how to end this entry

16/10/2025.medialog, games.

I recently played both the REANIMAL demo and Little Nightmares III, I'll talk about both of them in the same entry because even though they are different games you can't really talk about one without the other. For those who don't know, REANIMAL is an upcoming game made by Tarsier Studios, the original studio for the first and second entry in the Little Nightmares franchise, however, the third game was made by Supermassive Games (mostly known for Until Dawn and The Dark Pictures Anthology), and, sadly, the difference is really, really there.

Little Nightmares III

Ever since the community got the news that Supermassive was going to take the wheel for the third game there were lots of doubts, not only because a change in studios is almost always something to worry about, but because lately their games seem to be pretty hit or miss. People tried to be optimistic, and it's probably this optimism that led to feelings of poor development on the side of Little Nightmares 3. Not only because Little Nightmares III has lots, and I mean LOTS, of bugs, but also because the game just didn't seemed to deliver. You can get a taste of the franchise, but there's just something missing.

Before I get into what I didn't like about the game I gotta say I didn't hate it. Just last year I went through a Little Nightmares fixation (if you been on my site since V1 you probably noticed) so I was pretty hyped for the news of a third game, that probably helped me a bit, because I must say I saw a few not-so-good reviews of it and I thought I would hate it, but besides the damn frustrating bugs I had a nice time. My criticism is less from a place of hate and more as a fan, I do hope they take the feedback into consideration to keep making what made Little Nightmares the beautiful game that it's known to be. The game is more fun if you're not familiar or if this is your first game in the franchise, both because of how disconnected is from the story in the past games and because difficulty-wise is the easiest one of the current games.

The Story.
I've seen many people express how they didn't understand what the story in Little Nightmares III was about and, as someone who has (somewhat of) an idea of what the story is about, I totally understand the complaint. As a fan, it is kinda cool to see hints of The Sound of Nightmares, to see more protagonists and the journey of more kids through The Nowhere, but I also think this story feels out of place for the main games, it has more the vibes of a spin-off or DLC story rather than a main one, even the story of Very Little Nightmares seems more fitting in the main series. I'm not saying that they should've continued the story of Six or Mono, I think they both ended just fine in their respective games, and I love the idea of new protagonists, but there's just something about Low and Alone that when you think the game is going to expand more about them it just, doesnt. The game also feels like it's battling between trying to be its own thing and also being like "Hey guys! Remember this from Little Nightmares I and II? Pretty cool huh? We have it too!", and the story is one of the most affected aspects of this. Like, yeah, it was pretty cool on their respective games, but we want to see more about what makes III cool! There's so many hints at past games that feel only like easter eggs rather than world building. This worked on I and II because both games are directly co-related, not only universe-wise.

The ending (spoilers)

I gotta be honest, I'm a HUGE >:-( hater of the "This character was in the imagination of the protagonist this whole time!!" trope. I would've preferred for the game to not go that direction, but at the same time, in the perspective of Low, I understand it.

The kids in the Little Nightmares universe, both inside and outside the Nowhere, are deeply troubled and in constant danger. They are often abandoned by the adults, neglected, and sometimes straight up taken advantage of (Like Noone in The Sound of Nightmares), not only that, but often have to learn to leave people behind, and at times, they have to learn that even the other kids will betray you. It's a world where they have to survive on their own, so it makes sense for Low to imagine a companion, a friend that won't betray or abandon him, that helps him through the nowhere and gives him company when he's back in the real world. I don't mind for a little boy to imagine a friend; in fact, I think his dynamic with Alone is pretty fitting in the Little Nightmares universe, as sad as it is. I'm glad they didn't exactly go with another betray ending as many of us feared (the Little Nightmares II ending has left us with extreme trust issues!), or even a super sugar-coated ending, because Little Nightmares has never been about that, and I think at least this is something that Supermassive Games understood.

In a way I think I also don't mind this because, as a former lonely kid myself, I used to imagine having my own best friend who made everything with me, even though that kid never came, sometimes imagination is the only companion for a lonely kid.

The World of Little Nightmares III I think the game shines the most when it gives itself permission to just be Little Nightmares III. Some levels feel too similar to the ones in the past two games, which in itself is not a bad thing, but the best ones were definitely the original maps. The first chapter in the desert was beautifully made, once it got to nighttime and you knew the doll was around it gave a perfect sense of eeriness, I LOVED this one part when you go to another room and the Doll is just waiting and looking at you, just *MWAH* BEAUTIFUL! The carnival chapter is my second favorite, I love carnival maps in general and I think despite being a populated map with lots of lights it still had its fair share of creepiness, you know the danger is around, and it's cool to just be around. Also, around the final chapter, the gimmick with the doll that puts you between the Nowhere and the real one was one of my favorite things in this game, I would've loved if they made more things in that direction, but sadly, the game lacks a bit in the gameplay department.

The gameplay.
One of the biggest complaints I saw is that the game is too expensive for its short runtime and an overall simplified gameplay from what's expected in the franchise, and that's something I agree with. People were excited big time for the co-op gameplay, a first in Little Nightmares! But the hype lost momentum from the fact that local gameplay is not an option. Some people also think that co-op, even if fun by default because you're playing with someone else, seemed to be affected by how few times you actually have to cooperate with each other and are mostly just exploring and going from point A to point B.

As a loner myself, I played the game on my own, and playing with the AI was fine most of the time, I expected this from Little Nightmares II where Six was a pretty cool NPC to play alongside with, not only because of her being helpful but because she has its... Moments. However, the few times the AI didn't work were pretty frustrating, especially because many times it wasn't even the fault of the AI and more of the bugs, ESPECIALLY at the end of my run.

I played as Alone because I just thought she was cute, and through the game Low actually did stuff on his own, the times I had to call him to do something were rare, except at the end, where he has to (minor spoilers) shot at the eyes of the final boss. My Low just WOULDN'T do it! In past bugs I encountered in my gameplay every time a bug stopped my game experience I had to restart the whole chapter, but for this the distance between the start of the chapter and the final boss fight was too much, so I had to drop it for the moment. I'll probably replay the game (or at least the final chapter) as Low, and I don't feel that bad to haven't finished the game on the first run because there were just a few minutes of gameplay and the ending, but man. I don't fully blame the game for this bad experience (there's some blame because of the bugs), but it was a bit frustrating, I wish I could've gotten a smooth experience just like I did with Little Nightmares II.

Little Nightmares III conclusion.
So, as I said before, I think the game was fine, but I don't think it feels like an improvement of Little Nightmares II or even Little Nightmares I, and as a sequel that's a really bad note to hit. I'm looking forward to the extra content coming for 2026, but this practice of putting out a game that doesn't feel finished and that you have to wait extra time for the complete experience is not a good thing. I might talk about the other two games in another entry, about my love for them and what I think about stuff (I'm a HUGE!! Six ADVOCATE!!!), or add another entry when the extra content comes out, but for now, those are my feelings about Little Nightmares III.

REANIMAL

I left REANIMAL for the end because since it was just a demo it was just going to be a shorter one, but man, I'm SO SO EXCITED for the full release! I've been so hyped for this game ever since the teasers came out. It looked so more creepier that their work in Little Nightmares from the get-go and from the look of the demo it's definitely going to deliver. I love the aesthetic, the designs are SO CUTE!! And the fact that THEY TALK! it feels so natural. I liked the muted characters in Little Nightmares besides their cute little "heeey!" "ooooi!" (Six my beloved), but hearing the characters have dialogue in REANIMAL feels so good, it makes me more excited to know about them, how they then ended up there, also the fact that the group feels bigger than just one or two kids, I'm so mad that I was so into it and then BANG!! A reminder that this was in fact just a demo, I can't wait for the full release T__T!! (a quick sidenote but forgive my low-res screenshots for this one lol, REANIMAL sadly didn't ran smoothly on my humble PC T__T Hopefully by the time of the release I'll get a better graphic card) The game villains we saw so far, especially the big guy. He looks so gross and creepy, the fact that you see him go through a corpse to get in another room is just >___< The environment looks beautiful, things look even more huge than before. Even if it's a short demo I'll probably replay it because there seems to be more masks than the one I got. I just, I don't know man I have nothing but hype for this game!

In an overall conclusion, I'm hoping Supermassive takes the feedback into consideration for the future entries of the saga, if they plan or are greenlighted to do so. It's a shame that, inevitably, both games are going to get compared and REANIMAL is obviously going to look better in the eyes of the community. There was a bias even before Little Nightmares III came out and people already knew they would dislike it, and I'm not saying that like, there's no reasons to dislike the game, I totally agree with some of the criticism, but there's also a lot of people that just seem they didn't wanted to like it from the get-go. I hope both games can co-exist and we get the full potential for both of them. Little Nightmares has a special place in my heart, but I know that a lot of the merit goes to Tarsier Studios, so I'm excited for what's to come, and if this is the end for Little Nightmares I just hope the game just ends with a banger.

11/10/2025.HALLOWEEN >:-D!!!, personal.

In this modern age many people are indifferent to it, but I really like to watch TV, and I have a soft spot for open television. We have cable at my home, but I can't really afford to pay for an extra device in my room, so I only have a rabbit ears antenna and a small flat tv that belongs to my little brother (mine just stopped working out of nowhere a few months back), for me, TV is a companion, a distraction, something for me to not go to sleep in completely silence and darkness, alone with my own thoughts. When I started writing this entry I was just going to talk about my childhood nostalgia related to the television but since we're on SPOOKY SEASON >:-D!! I thought, well, why not talk about both my childhood trauma and the nostalgia that comes with it? I noticed that, oddly enough, a lot of nostalgia can also come from a scary place, and I think that's kinda sweet. Obviously beware on some of these videos, especially in the screamers section lol.

Little tangent about what made me want to write this entry; my TV doesn't catch many channels, and out of all of them there are only like two that have night-time programming instead of just letting the infomercials run. These past few days I've been watching this one channel named "Maussan Televisión",a channel run by Jaime Maussan. If this name rings a bell even as an outsider of Mexico, it's because you might remember him from that whole alien fiasco from last year that sparked some memes for a while, from this you can kinda get an idea about the contents of this channel; conspiracies, the paranormal, LOTS OF ALIENS!! some other regular shows here and there and... Alternative medicine... For some reason? o__O It's dumb, and I love it >XD it was this channel that brought back the memories of staying up late and catching shows that I wasn't supposed to be watching at that age, and I'm not talking about sexual content (te estoy viendo, noches de Golden), but just some good classic spooky content.

There was this one show named "El Mundo Paranormal de Vane" (Vane's Paranormal World) that would air at midnight in our local TV channel, and this was one of the first shows that I would watch that would give me feelings of "Ooooh I shouldn't be awake!". From my memories and a few archives online, the show was about urban exploration, scary stories, some special episodes with movies (I remember watching Alien Abduction: Incident in Lake County for the first time on this show) and some classic scary videos from the internet. Mind you, this was around the mid to late 2000's, so a lot of these videos were straight up just screamers. Little Milky was horrified by it, but at the same time, fascinated! I remember having Cartoon Network in the go-back button on the remote so every time something scary seemed to be around the corner I would just go back to my safe space lol T_T this is were I would fall for some of my first jumpscares. There was this one video that I had the misfortune to tune the channel in the moment of the jumpscare lol. It was about a security camera in night vision recording a hallway, an alarm seem to go off and at one point there is a white face screaming directly at the camera, I haven't been able to find this one, maybe is out there but my memory got things mixed up because well, childhood memories do that sometimes. Funnily enough, my first screamer wasn't from this show, but is the first one I remember from TV!

Screamers & internet related

I'll try not to talk about the most known and popular videos, but honorable mentions go to Obedece a la Morsa, the Saudi Arabia encounter with a witch, There's Nothing, I Feel Fantastic and Body of a Pig for living rent free in many of the restless nights of young me.

My first screamer.
In an appropriate fashion, the first screamer I remember watching was shown to me by my older brother. Back when we got our first family PC he called me to our computer room to show me a video. It was of an explosion near a ship with no sound at all, he told me you were suppossed to wait for the sound the explosion made, and then GAAAH!! Screamer!!



Looking for it I realized how obscure this seems to be compared to the more popular ones, so now I wonder, where the fuck did he even got this one from? lmao T__T I also think these kind of screamers where there was nothing scary to begin with were the worst ones, and they made me develop trust issues on the internet e_e which by itself is not a bad thing really lol I avoided many suspicious links thanks to this, so thank you, cruel people out there!

El Mal.
There really was a time when screamers would be EVERYWHERE!! And sadly, for little me, that also included bootleg DVD's. Back then I remember that I loved watching the extra content on DVD's and the bootleg ones had them too, even if most of the time they were not related to the movie at all, they would have some funny, musical or scary videos. The one that I found was named "El Mal" (The Evil), this one has become pretty infamous here in México (and probably other places in latin-america) because back then not many kid's had computers or internet at home, so they had no idea what a screamer was, I've read from many people that this was their first screamer and they found it in the extras of a kids movie DVD. There's also some fun irony in this specific extra because it's an ANTI-PIRACY one LMAO! The guy in the video gives his testimony and is like "I heard a voice while I was burning this DVD... It said to me... "Don't be a pirate! Don't be a pirate!", and this could happen to YOU!!". The video then cuts to a trashed room and the text reads "Look how the door at the back closes", at the same time the music stops just for good old screamer tension. Then suddenly GAAAAH!! Scary ghost lady screaming at you. Something more comes after it but I obviously stopped watching after the screamer. While looking for this one I realized that El Mal seems to just be a translation of an internet screamer, it makes sense, but who would've thought! Scaring people can really unite people around the world lol



This screamer really FUCKED me up as a kid, and after this I got scared to look at extras ever again lmao T__T I remember a few years after, when me and my family visited my dad's family, I went to the computer room from the hotel to play dress-up and Disney games and some kids on the other computer were watching scary videos. We talked about them for a while, I told them about this video because of how much it had stayed with me lmao T_T Thankfully, this was the only one I watched on a bootleg DVD, it seems these extras had not only other screamers, but also, from what I've read from other people, you could also find way more upsetting videos, like gore, shock videos or even sexual content, is a whole rabbit hole.

The lady in a Call of Duty Monkey Bomb tutorial.
That's an insane title isn't it? And this one is not even a screamer, but I'm adding it here because is more internet-related than TV-related, and it hunt me for many nights while trying to sleep. I remember I found this one in a scary videos playlist, and while watching it I thought that maybe the playlist author add it as a mistake, or that maybe the creepy part of it was just the monkey doll, but I kept watching because the tutorial part was actually kinda interesting lol. The video is a simple tutorial on how to make the Call of Duty Monkey Bomb prompt and, at some point in the video (around 2:33 to be specific) the tutorial glitches, the video stops, and when it comes back the video is now in a room with a little girl crying in the middle, the video glitches a bit again and now, behind the girl, there's a woman in black with her face covered by a veil. The woman gets in front of the camera, uncovers her face, and you now notice that she has no face at all, the video then goes back to normal.
I gotta say I LOVE this video, I think the fact that there's no audio for the scary part adds a lot to it, I also like that it takes so little screentime in the overall video, so it really takes you off guard. I think they used makeup (?) for the lady's face, but whatever it was it looks great! You just know that this looked real as fuck for me as a kid. These guys obviously have talent and I imagine they had fun making this video, so even if little me was scared of that lady for many years current-year me actually appreciates it and remembers it fondly!

The Cursed Kleenex Commercial.
I've been a fan of Shrouded Hand for a while, so when I looked back for this video and realized it was made by him it was a pretty cool surprise! This has no screamer on it, but I love the way he made the cursed version of it, how he takes advantage of the low resolution of the video to make an uncanny mess. I can also understand why people would make a scary story about the original commercial, the vibes feel pretty off and even today I'm still a bit creeped out by the song. OMG!! Amazing Dancer!!
I'm gonna be honest, I didn't watch this video as a kid, but while looking through old screamers I found this one and OH MY GOD!! This might be peak screamer because that lady at the end is HORRIFYING!! Just like the cursed Kleenex commercial the low resolution really adds to her looking more uncanny, and from out of all the faces in the screamers this has aged pretty well. I'm glad I didn't see this one as a kid, it would've SCARRED ME!! If someone reading this saw it as a kid, I'm so sorry for you lol T__T

TV related

Pucca: Funny Love Stories, Caughting in the Rain.
This one made me nervous while watching TV as a kid. Even though regular episodes of Pucca used to air on Jetix, they would also show the shorts in between commercials, and these mother fuckers LOVED to air episode 14 late at night. I think I rarely, if ever, catched this episode at daytime. Nowadays I think it's a pretty cool homage to japanese horror in kids media. The episode is about Garu getting caught in the rain, so he looks for shelter at a nearby house porch, while in there he starts to hear a faint crying from inside the house, so he goes to check out, getting spooked by this girl a few times until, at one point, he looks at her from behind and it seems to just be Pucca! A bit more relaxed, he tries to scare her back, but before he does he looks at the window only to notice that Pucca is actually outside. He looks back to the girl only to see that she's on her real form, slowly getting up and turning her face to him. Scared as fuck, Garu runs to the exit before taking a final look back, only to get jumpscared by this ghost girl! He jumps outside, scared, and the short ends.

After watching this episode for the first time I got super nervous even just watching the intro from the Funny Love Stories, scared of being this one again lmao T__T once I noticed it really was I would just change channels. I don't even think the jumpscare by itself his that scary, is the whole build-up, the tone feels so different and out of place from every other Pucca episode so it makes it more eerie, it's an amazing piece of child horror media, but even watching it again these days I can completely understand being scared of it. There's another similar episode from the regular series that had a jumpscare at the end of it (linking the latin-american version because the english ones I found on youtube doesn't seem to have the jumpscare on them ?_?), and despite other people saying that they got scared at that one I don't really remember feeling the same, I think it's because, like I said before, the scary part of the episode is the build-up, the regular episode is more akin to a traditional screamer that takes you off-guard at the end of the episode, nice episode still! I got some nostalgia looking for this episode, I want to watch Pucca now T__T

Facundo and the ghost girl.
Facundo was the host of the TV show Incógnito, and in one episode he would get in a cemetery because, as an sceptic, he wanted to prove that ghosts weren't real. He tried to approach the visit with more of a funny and even cynical approach, challenging the spirits to show up to him. He would get his wish and find what seems to be a little girl in front of a grave that would scare the shit out of him lol. This is a classic one on Mexican television and I do remember watching it live; it was terrifying as a kid. Facundo also maintains that, at least from his perspective, this was completely real, and I don't mean that this was a real ghost or something but it could've been a random girl on that night or someone playing a prank on him, so his reaction was completely real. I think this mixed with the whole build-up makes for an amazing spoopy video, I love it.

Servicio a la Comunidad.
This is another classic from Mexican television; I was thinking of just adding it to the honorable mentions but this is something special.

Servicio a la Comunidad (Service for the Community) was a collection of spots that would serve as somewhat of an ambert alert, giving information about missing people and asking for help from the viewers, they would air at channel 5, hhich had an audience of mostly kids and teenagers, so getting these spots between cartoons was a bit off putting. Even if as a kid you didn't fully understand the seriousness of a missing person, you'll get the feeling that this was something serious. It also didn't help that many of these photos were in really low resolution, making for some uncanny and sometimes not even legible faces at times. To me, this was one of these things I would see on TV and made me think of changing channels, but I wouldn't because it felt disrespectful to me, I felt like I owed my attention to these people, even if there was nothing I could do about it.
As I said before, this is a classic for the Mexican community not only because it would be creepy to see as a kid, but also because in recent years it has gotten somewhat of a creepy-pasta and even a conspiracy theory status, as some people said that Selene Delgado is not a real person but just a phenotype of missing girls collected into one. This theory was popularized by FlorecitaDreams video about it. Servicio a la Comunidad also gained a bit more of traction because of the rise of the analog horror popularity, and people would make edits inspired by these spots.

Extranormal zombie episode.
This show used to air every sunday and I loved watching it with my family, it was like our tradition. It was campy and pretty fun to watch. I didn't find many things on the show scary, but there was this one episode that scared the shit out of me for two reasons: I watched it alone and it was about something that I was deeply afraid of as a child (even as a teenager), zombies. Of course now I watch it and understand that it is not real and that zombies are NOT!! coming, but back then my fear of zombies, by itself, knew no rationality, and to think that there was even a little possibility that they were real was HORRIBLE for my little kid mind. I think it's also funny that the opening of this segment has a warning of not letting kids watch without an adult, probably exactly because of this reason and the fact that as a kid things look way more real than they are, and little me suffered the consequences of having to watch this one alone T__T The lack of context and them filling the blanks didn't help, and like for example, for the second video, it showed one of the things that filled my nightmares for many years, the zombies overpowering you and tearing you apart x__X watching this was horrifying but it was one of these "it's so scary I can't look apart" moments for me. The third video also stayed with me for some reason, like now I can see that it is just a girl in a costume but back then, probably from being already creeped out, it seemed more real. I'm glad someone archived this episode on the internet so I could watch it again and notice that it's just not as realistic as my child mind made it to be because otherwise I'll probably be super freaked out about this memory x_X

The color bars.
To end off this entry, I'm gonna talk about one I have no evidence of. It's a weird one because it wasn't even scary or anything, just off-putting and kinda odd. So, back in the day, as many other kids, I was afraid of the color bars at the end of regular programming, even these days they feel odd, I know there's nothing wrong about them but it's just one of these things. Back then a certain channel, even for just a while (for like a week I think) would air something just before the color bars: home videos.

This same channel would air this one show named "Ay Caramba!" that was basically just America's Funniest Home Videos but with a latin-american host (that for some reason was a 3D donkey lol), at first I thought they would probably air some episodes before ending the schedule for the day, but no, they were just regular home videos with nothing funny or even interesting happening on them, I remember one of them just being of a woman walking beside what seemed to be her kid learning to ride a bike, they also had this uncanny detail to them: no audio. Like I said, there was nothing scary about it, but out of all the things I saw on TV after hours, the adult cartoons, the infomercials, the scary videos, the national anthem THIS was the thing that made me feel the most out of place, the thing that made me feel like I was watching something that I wasn't supposed to, and hell, maybe I wasn't! Why was this little Mexican girl watching them on TV at midnight out of all places? These days I still watch that channel, hoping to see something like that again to maybe record it and archive it for myself, but I doubt it will ever happen again. Television is just not the same as it was back then, and to be honest that's fine, as I'm not the same little girl anymore, so things don't look as whimsical as they used to.

Phew! That was a long one! Thanks for reading this silly entry, there's something nostalgic about being afraid as a kid of things that are just not real treats, especially as you grow up you get scared of more and more tangible things. Maybe one day I'll make an entry about the videos or media that have scared me as an adult, I was also considering adding some vocaloid horror in here because there were some songs, art and PV's that scared me as a child, But I think that would be better for another entry! So for now, that was it! Happy (upcoming) halloween!