my art

I started making digital art around 2013. I used to draw before that but it wasn't anything crazy or consistent, mostly your typical doodles and comics from a teen weeb. I really liked fighting games and they sparked my interest in character design, so I would just try and design my own cuties inspired in my favorite characters. Once I picked an interest in anime I met a community of people who made their own characters inspired in Naruto, so I joined and the rest is story!



Art for me can be an
expression of my own mental health struggles
, an outlet to escape from real life into the non-realistic but still relatable suffering, and a medium for storytelling. I try to put love and care into everything I make simply because there's nothing more that I can do but enjoy it and keep getting better. Frustration leads nowhere and it should never be anything more than a motivation to keep getting better!

Art, for me, as weird as it can sound, is also proof that I exist, that this woman trapped in her own mind who doesn't leave her house most of the time and doesn't live in the mind of many people still existed at some point in her life and put her whole heart onto her art.

So, in a sense,
art is also a celebration of life!
As it always should be. There's nothing more beautiful than to see the art of the human mind, and I just want to express that life can be as beautiful and worth living as it is painful and exhausting.

tOols


I've been using
Paint Tool Sai
since the beggining. I know there's way more advanced art-related software out there and I have tried many others but SAI has just what I need and I have always worked so comfortable in it, I don't feel like I need anything else! I currently use version 2! I used to draw with a mouse up until 2017, that year I won a Wacom Bamboo in a raffle, I named it Bosco Wombles and I was so happy to have my first tablet ever! I used the shit out of that fella and only got a new one because it started dying on me y__y Right now my drawing tablet is a and I love it! It works great and it was pretty cool to have a tablet that I had bought on my own!




These are my brushes. Sometimes I use additional brushes like the acrylic brush from jcm2, but these are the ones I use the most. I also tend to change the pressure in the XPPEN software depending on whether I'm painting or making a lineart, usually go for stronger strokes for lineart and softer ones for the painting/rendering phase.

Technically speaking I really enjoy making the lineart and the little details, I also love making the composition for bigger pieces, the rendering can be a bit frustrating at first and I tend to redo everything sometimes but once things start looking more like I want them to I enjoy it a lot. I love making pieces with many elements on it, I don't do it more often only because I feel like I don't always have the brains for it @__@
Thematically speaking, I like to draw about themes of
life, death and love
. The creepy, the cute and the inbetween. I aim for semi-realistic but stylized paintings and a cute anime style, the subject for most of my art are
my oc's
, pieces that are reflective of their stories, their struggles or just them in general. I rarely draw fanart and I don't really like to draw myself so if it wasn't for my oc's I probably wouldn't draw that often lol.

I also enjoy to draw the dynamics of their relationships, I strongly believe that
fiction does not equal reality
, but I also respect and understand if people don't feel comfortable with these themes being portrayed, that it's mostly what motivated me to archive my art in my own place, here at least is easier for people to avoid.